Certain jobs, like doctors, willingly accept that trauma. In an entire career you will be imperfect and mistakes hurt people, kill people, in the medical field. People who would have been fine if you had not made a mistake. There is a courage to that I can't fully comprehend.
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Am I nieve? Probably in some sense, yes.
What do I do about it? I can't very well seek out that experience.
Are there certain lessons I can't learn without an experience like that? Maybe. I don't know.
All I can do is be grateful I've never been there I guess. I don't know.
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just trust that you've done well enough even when you fuck up
or that you're human and it happens
it's really not that hard hurting others anyway
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That's the thing though, Ive only ever hurt myself when Ive fucked up. Never other people. Its much easier to grapple with that. Easier to forgive yourself when you didn't hurt someone else, cause its your forgiveness to give. Im scared of a world where that's not always the case
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what's so bad about hurting others anyway
is this a trauma thing
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I... don't know how to answer this. It seems self evident to me that hurting others is bad. If I try to explain it it's circular. Hurting others is bad because then others are hurt. Idk
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yeah but either you intended to do this, in which case, goal accomplished
or you tried and failed. I guess I get it if it's complete carelessness but at some point it's just a possible risk if you affect others
is this a problem about imbalanced emotial space ideas
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does it feel scary to leave a lasting change in other people
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this feels like outflow from wanting to minimize your own emotional space around others, to be invisible, to leave no trace
if you're bold or ask for things or change people you're now Responsible and that's scary, others can get upset at you about it
"it's safer not to"
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