changes in my emotional processing over the last month or so:
🔸 less saying words out loud, more wandering through memories and images
🔸 less crying, more shaking / shuddering / tremors
🔸 more focus on the breath
🔸 more focus on awareness of the space around me
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. uses this phrase “global wayfinding” to describe his vision of meditative practice (which is among other things inclusive of trauma processing etc.) and i’ve been bouncing it around in my head a lot. open-ended improvisational feeling into next steps
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memories and images have been feeling increasingly rich relative to words and i’m gonna roll with that for awhile to see what happens. much higher fidelity. i think more stuff has been happening in my sleep too but i mostly don’t remember it. wake up slightly different erryday
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i’ve also been trying out some kind of what i guess is called “inquiry practice”; sort of dropping a question into my system and letting it ping around without trying to force an “answer”
lately it’s been something like “what do i care about” or “what did i want as a kid”
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Does the shaking come with fear? I've been working through a lot of that with leg/hip/hand shaking, reminiscent of restless leg syndrome. I might be working through my anxiety idk
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often but not always. are you familiar with the whole gazelles shaking off trauma thing? it feels like that
don’t have a canonical reference for this yet but google brought up this:
acesconnection.com/blog/therapeut
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can you share more about the tremors/shaking? is it spontaneous or do you intentionally create a moment and space for them to happen?
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definitely not spontaneous, i clamp down on my body habitually. have to decide on purpose to “let up”
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