My gut reaction here is to suggest trying even less hard. If there is a *thing* here, it sounds like it might be of the kind that will resolve itself.
Not saying to ignore it either. Just to continue with the same exercises with an even reduced level of 'caring'.
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yeah okay that makes sense
it's extremely easy to fall into doing things "too hard" on my meds
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Yes, it's a trap. The resolution to this will happen by itself and it will surprise you.
When you're playing with it, see if you can get a sense of how much you 'care' to fix, get it right or solve.
Score that level out of ten. Imagine it as a dial and turn it slowly down to 0.
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oh my god I fixed it
it probably won't be permanent but this is the longest I've held it
I started to get a migraine and then I thought "wait what if I just stop trying to make it go away with telekinesis"
;laskdjf this is incredible I've only had glimpses of this thing
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it's like this radius of awareness + little inhibitory movements
I can feel the radius shrink when it starts to become important that the headache go away and then I do a little expansive movement w/my attention and the radius expands again
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This might be too Jedi for now, but when you make this 'expansive movement' see if you can notice a lengthening process in your spine starting from where your skull meets your spine*
* This is more or less behind your eyes and between your ears. You can't *do* this physically.
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still hard to attend to my body much without zooming in but I'll try
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Try as little as possible! Consider it a mere afterthought that there might be something worth noticing there.
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man okay this is nuts
I don't find myself inclined to throw all of my obligations to the wind
like the bulk of the choosing and acting that I do is something of a black box and doesn't require any clutching at all
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oh my god I've been death grip masturbating my brain
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lol
selene i relate strongly, migraines mostly stopped for me when i stopped trying to telikeniticly brute force reality into going my way, especially including trying to force myself into not having migraines
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oh shit wait what
this makes a lot of sense but uhh where to start, i maybe desperately need to figure this out 😬
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