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Working out thread you can skip it if need be!

I really only started working out right after the 2016 election, I got a personal trainer because I was really afraid of getting depressed/immobilized and wanted something tangible to focus on

I focused on one thing which was getting stronger. My first trainer was a CrossFit guy so I learned a lot of kettlebell workouts and started lifting

Since then I’ve added running and did my first 5k this past month which was something I would never have imagined doing a few years ago

Now I’m doing what I call terminator 6 workouts with my trainer, it’s wild to experience tangible benefits like being able to carry more groceries home, and i actually have back muscles now?? Which feels like a cronenberg thing tbh

The exercise I find the most grounding/meditative is strength/lifting that involves balance - the combo of exerting strength and balancing really makes me surrender to my body’s natural intelligence over my analytical mind and it feels very healing

Anyway I have struggled to find ways to relate to / be in / with my body for my entire life likely due to various trauma & dysregulating situations that have been diagnosed variously as fibromyalgia, mystery virus or possible ms so

I increasingly suspect these weird mystery medical conditions are actually downstream of emotional dysregulation. I've had a mysterious chronic tightness in my chest for years that I thought was something like asthma, but turns out it was tons of suppressed feelings.