You will be locked into a black box with flickering lights for about 80 years. You will go mad. But even if you slowly manage to recover some sanity during the ordeal (which almost nobody does), you will just die in the end.
What makes you think that light or love were involved in creation? How do you know that there was creation? What notion do you have about the nature of love and light? This sounds as if it involves a lot of assumptions that need to be fully disassembled and disinfected.