The notion of a God that has created me is terrifying to me. It seems to imply that The Church did not just implant their exoself next to my self into the reality generated by my brain, but that this exoself replaced the native self of the host with a new self of its own creation
The natural shape of God is the superorganism that you understand yourself to be part of. You are correct: an organism is in all of its cells, and all the cells are the organism. But more precisely: the organism is the function that describes the organization of the cells.