PatrickRS #BlackLivesMatter

mostly centered around my eyes. I’m not going to lie, it’s definitely having an effect on my mental condition. I’ve got an MRI scheduled for Friday. Now, unrelated to that (or so I thought) my jaw gets pretty swollen at times,

like for days or weeks on end. It can move my whole bite forward so that my mouth will tend to close in a pretty severe, and very uncomfortable underbite. Looking into it sounds like this might be TMJ, and if so I think I probably did this to myself

playing ice hockey back in high school. In a game once I took a solid shoulder to the face that temporarily dislocated my jaw on the right side. Super fun/painful. Had to go get catscan and stuff. Basically couldn’t chew for a month. You’re thinking “but face cages?” Right?

Well, when I got into hockey, no one in my family was. So my dad took me to the pro shop and we just set me up with whatever the 17 year old working there said. He advised that I NOT attach the J-Clips to my helmet that stop the face cage from pushing into your face

too hard, on the theory that your face can take that blow better than your neck. My dad thought this 17 year old with a mullet had a very solid medical background, so that’s what we did. Anyway...

Little while ago, my right ear is just throbbing and pulsing and making me absolutely insane, like jump out a window unbearable. My jaw is swollen too and the overbite is pissing me off. In something of a rage I grabbed my chin and just jammed it back into my face as hard as I

could. And as I do this, I can HEAR my right ear opening up. Whooossssshhhh... and the pulsing stops. Nearly totally at least, overall a massive reduction in tinnitus. My WHOLE HEAD feels depressurized, like someone deflated a balloon that was in there

Within hours I realize that I’m emerging from a pretty seriously depressed funk that I’d gotten so used to I didn’t even realize I was in and I’m waking with a new spring in my step. A new fucking man over here. Now, it’s not totally gone, and I’m following up