ヌルゴースト

please delete this picture,thx https://twitter.com/KarKuma2/status/1392895800821358599 …

I tried but tired and sad

I don't want to try to find out who's still supporting me

But now I can only make my work public for those who really support me

Although the results of the vote I know people still want me to twitter or patreon can be made public

I'm thinking about sending it only in patreon in the future The reason may be that people who really support me

I also know that when I talk about negative emotions people may unfollow me but it's ok ,it's my wrong I'll delete it and avoid talking about it again

I think my daily life is very unhealthy now Lose momentum Complete any character work to the project Lost motivation to draw doodle post to twitter keep my assertive Lost motivation to draw art package keep live Lie in bed every day I think it's an endless vicious circle

However, some people complain about me. They are more failed and less popular than me. He thinks I shouldn't say that I am a failure So I feel guilty what I say So I try to be patient and don’t say who artist made me feel frustrated or failed

I still failed, compared to other artist's character

I've tried it many times in 10 years

Because of other artists I lost my expectation of Rubido with any idea Because I can't go beyond the characters of other artists to be more attractive So I can't finish any art and I can't draw any ideas for him Because I'm afraid that if the community is not interested in me

I haven't draw Rubido in a long time

I think I still have new characters that have to be designed to be done However, when I think of the setbacks of more than 10 years, I still feel that after finishing, I will still be repeatedly frustrated by other artists or projects This prevents me from going forward

Later I'll remove those negative talk sorry

.... I need good changes I need to make these people pay attention to me again who originally supported me but now ignore my art As they are so loyal to pay attention to other artists forever don't give up them artist

I'm sorry to say that How do i try to draw happy I ended up feeling frustrated because I didn’t see the change best any time I can’t change who others want to support who artist or their behavior I can only watch the trend of the community silently and accept the result

Where is the community that supports me and keep here