So, I've got some thought, and they might be a bit off putting. Fair warning. I've been at a cross roads lately, for a long time in fact, the long chase for fame and fortune on the internet, thus my coffers, is one that everyone can identify with.
#dear @TeamYouTube Let me first start off by saying #IloveYouTube it is, by #farandwide the #best #platform for #voicing our #opinions, #views, and #everydaythoughts that might otherwise go unnoticed. You are the epitome of epic. #awshit the #coffee has #justkickedin
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#seemsimpossible that no matter what,#yourplatform has#alwaysbeenthere for me.#true, I'm not a#superstar of the#creatorcumminty, but I have a#longandstoried#history on your site. You're my#homeawayfromhome and to be honest, I wouldn't have it any other way.Show this thread -
I joined your site in 2007, the
#sametime that I had just started my second year@VVCFilms VVC doesn't have it's own twitter. Fuckers. Anyways, I was there through the#ageof#replyvideos, through the rampant#revolutions and movements to stop the bullying.Show this thread -
I watched as creators grew in size and popularity, when
@PhillyD was just some angry fucknut with Douchebag of the Days and@KEEMSTAR was simply just some Halo player. I've watched things with hopeful eye that one day I might join the#rankandfile of the greats.Show this thread -
I saw the start of
@markiplier and the growth of his second channel. The greatness of#baitedpodcast and the memevolution from just something simple to a whole movement in and of itself. I have been witness to and a part of and a member opposed to the Bullying, the shout outs.Show this thread -
So, I must ask this, Why am I still at the level I am at? Am I bad at being a Youtuber?? or do I serve a more broader purpose, to see the rise of others while I myself remain at the level I'm at for all eternity? I don't
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I am witness to the greatness of others, because I theorize if I became as popular as them, if I put in the effort, the energy, the output that I had in the past, that I might lose sight of who I truly am. But I don't know who I am, in this respect. maybe I'm just a bystander.
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And, surprisingly enough, though I am but a smallfry, I have found friendship in
@ColossalisCrazy, the peppering from the Hotdogs group, fame within the#CoDcommunity, and more. Am I the#easteregg of Youtube? Am I just a hidden gem to be discovered? Do I deserve more growth?Show this thread -
I don't know, I've been struggling to find my niche, and maybe I'm just afraid to admit to myself that my time as a Tuber is over, or maybe I'm too stubborn, but I refuse to give up on this ideal, this goal, this ever present fervor to put out content people will enjoy.
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I refuse to let my channel die. I've bore witness to too much, to many things have taken a toll on me, and I will NOT DIE OUT, NOR LET MY FLAME BE SMOTHERED BY THOSE WHO WOULD SEE ME FALL! Maybe I take this seriously, but in end, my channels content and videos are my history.
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My memories. People, places, events that have transpired in my life. I can't forget them, I don't want that history to die out. It scares me to think that all that history can just be erased with a simply press of a button. I don't want to die out like that. To be forgotten?
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I want to live. I WANT TO LIVE. I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE FOREVER! Even... Even if it's just in a looping sense. Even if none of my videos are popular. Even if there are haters, naysayers, people opposed to the content I post. Even as the sun dies out, I want my life, those parts?
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Those little slices of my time, my life, my energy? At least those, I want them to remain... Save my virtual self if I ever die, please? I don't want to die completely. I can barely remember my childhood, the faces of my cousins, my aunts and uncles... my dad, my grandparents...
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I don't want to forget, nor be forgotten. I don't want to end up as nothing. Nonexistent. lost in the ether of life and time. So, promise me YouTube, promise me this one thing, even if no replies... Promise me that my virtual self, my history, my content, my time, my life...
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Promise me those will live on. Because I ain't giving up. I won't give up on myself. I can't... I just... refuse.
#IloveYouTube like i love#writing. It's the part of me that's immortal, at least, in a virtual sense.Show this thread -
Dear
@god, have you ever been so pissed you accendently created something you regretted later on down the line? I like to think of Trump as that one thing among many that reminds you to be a bit more careful next time around the forge after a serious drinking binge.Show this thread -
And yes, time has passed since the previous post, so I'm in a much better mood, though some of my Discord pals are a bit concerned over some bits and pieces of conversation. I was in a mood, and often forget that I have a following. I mostly silent one, but still passionate.
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My words still ring true though, the ever present chase for immortality, in any form, is a constant. I guess this is the true purpose of youtube, to immortalize small moments in time whether it be through gaming, commentary, opinion, vlog, tutorial, cooking, or any other lilbit.
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I just realized that every time I add to this, the people @'d get a little ding. LET THE FUUUUUUN BEGIN!
@TMZ@pewdiepie@braininacat@Sneaky@thin@Zipcar @Yoo_Tooba There are cheese nips in your cabinet. This statement is true for at least one of you.Show this thread -
Alrighty,
#writing#update for my@twinethreads project on the#twine platform. So far, I've got around 10#projects and each of them are pretty cool in one way or another. Most of them are just#shortreads and some are#longreads but each of them are playable and cleaned up.Show this thread -
The
#currentone I'm#workingon#atm is called Toro Cancro Tournament, and it's not so much a#CYOA game as it is a branching story, but each of the paths are their own thing while still being connected to the#mainarc of the story. It's one of the things#Ilove about writing.Show this thread -
All of these and more can be found on http://philome.la/MorganGavin which is pretty awesome in and of itself.
#ifyou#lovewriting and#lovebranching your stories out, I#highlysuggest using#twine to it's fullest effect. Yes, there is a little bit of#coding involved, but it's#worthitShow this thread -
Ever since
@StoryMash just up and vanished, I've been searching for a platform that could meet my demands, because straightforward writing is a massive#pita and and#myass is#disorganized#af, so that's a thing.Show this thread -
#thankfully@decisionfiction is coming out with a#badass platform that will kick the utter crap out of#everyother#writingplatform#outthere including the#almighty#notepad program. Getting#backontrack here, I've got another project that I'm highly reluctant to work on.Show this thread -
It's called
#OkCupid#threadstories and#tobehonest? It's#darkAF, with everything you'd presumably come to expect from the#internet and more, I wrote these#threadstories YEARS ago, and for a long time, refused to even open up the#txtfiles because of what I knew#Idfind on em.Show this thread -
But,
#eventually, even the darkest corners of the mind must be brought into the light. and I'm#notlookingforward to working on them, because there IS an over arching plot to these seemingly disconnected#shortstories, but it's fucking ridiculous.#whichiswhy I'm working on it.Show this thread -
#Iam#firstandforemost an#author, and I take pride in all of my#works, some#published and#available#forpurchase on@amazon thanks in part to the amazing@CreateSpace but the OKCupid threadstories? that... that one is going up for free. I think it's time y'all see it...#yupShow this thread -
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#thinkaswriters it's important to explore#topics that we would#normallyavoid like the plague, it gives us opportunities to grow and enrich our talents,#whichiswhy I love using twine so much. I haven't released anything in a long time, because this project I'm working on?Show this thread -
It's going to blow your minds. Seriously,
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Okay, time for another thought swat...
#thoughtswat When you#thinkof#sexuality the first thing that#popstomind is a woman getting out the pool, water cascading down her form. But is sexuality, or the idea of sex in general just#limitedto those predefined concepts?Show this thread - 24 more replies
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