James J

! One day I wanna write about how I’ve fully had a dissociative disorder for almost 20 years now and my brain literally blanked on its existence from around 2017-2020 lmfao https://twitter.com/snakesasleeping/status/1379148466635436032 …

I had to fire my therapist last year because she insisted she “would’ve known” if I had a dissociative disorder and I was like babes, I—I wrote an entire book about it?!?!?? You just never met the rest of me.

Especially because they don’t like me talking to therapists about it! For good reason tbh! Her denial was immensely traumatizing after years of building trust with her.

And you know what triggered me to remember that I likely have DID/OSDD? Fucking Tiktok. Was there watching all the systems and I was like—wait, wait, WAIT. This is...this is me AND I WROTE AN ENTIRE BOOK ABOUT IT complete with a persecutor/protector PLIS

When Freshwater came out, I refused to align it with DID because people were already trying to erase the Igbo ontology and make it a metaphor for Western diagnoses.

Ada’s root trauma is that she’s a nonhuman entity trapped by embodiment. The violence that comes with embodiment eventually shows up in the ways it does for flesh—dissociating into multiple selves, depression/suicidality, etc. #Freshwater