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Getting this off my chest, because for some reason I’ve been struggling with this toxic feeling. I think if I talk about it, I can at least move one step closer to getting rid of the parasitic feeling. About a year ago, I really wanted to hit 30k on Twitter, which is honestly

kind of silly to begin with since I never had goals or dreams to be a full-time content creator. But I enjoyed making people laugh at or with me; the feeling was rewarding and comforting. Now here comes the toxic thoughts- A year has gone by and I am much further from that

goal. I’ve consistently lost 200-400 followers every month, totaling 2,000 and climbing. This is just so laughable because, well, I’m not a content creator. I’m just a person that’s sometimes find comfort in making people laugh online. And also, I am placing my self worth on

a number that A. I can’t control and B. Literally provides no value to me besides a superficial meaning. Anyway, I’m probably going to continue down on the decline of followers as people realize that this isn’t the kind of content they want to consume. But trying to focus

on the idea that my self worth isn’t reflective on how people view me online or the number of people who follow or interact with me. And if I place my self worth onto something I can’t control, then I hand all my power to other people become dependent on a number for validation.