I’m never going to stop struggling in tournaments until I can figure out my bracket anxiety. Things feel hopeless. I perform so well in friendlies but when it’s for real I shut down and make stupid mistakes. If I can’t take myself seriously under pressure, how can my opponent?
It’s not the fear of losing that bothers me. If I lose, I walk away from the set at least with more experience and knowing that I’m a better player than I came. I always try to ask for advice when I can.

