GeniesLoki

like every second i spend on a task takes a huge amount of effort. like if i tried to read a complicated paper and i had somebody singing loudly in my ear the whole time

Do you have a sense of what's causing the effort? Where is the "somebody singing loudly" coming from?

yeah kinda, it feels like it's just not fun. like i could be playing instead. but i often feel the same way when i play. like, not stimulating enough

Do you get a sense of what you need it to be stimulating enough for? What happens if you're understimulated?

i feel it less when i'm doing either dumb monotonous tasks that i can streamline, or something that requires a lot of brainpower and is also interesting. my current task is neither i go on twitter lol. or i don't and use 100500% of my willpower every second but it feels baad

Is going on Twitter what you do when you're understimulated or is that you do in order to prevent being understimulated? What does it feel like if you sit with your eyes closed for five minutes? (Set a timer or something)

definitely both haha, i don't usually wait until it starts being agonizing before distracting myself, unless the deadline is tomorrow same feeling, if i don't succeed in spacing out i keep thinking how boring this is and when is it finally over

What does it mean for something to be "boring" to you? How unpleasant is it? (I can stop if this isn't helpful BTW)