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2. This week has been intense in very productive ways. I've seen *such* positive movement on some of the most important relationships in my life and huge to everyone involved.

3. Alt Twitter is an amazingly interesting place that has seriously improved my mental health and helped me chill my online and IRL vibes the fuck out in 2020 and I am a better and happier person for all of you.

4. I've learned to fix triggers this year! I'm not saying my mind isn't still a mess of confusion and weird swirling emotions, but they're mostly much more fun ones now!

5. I'm doing really interesting research at the moment in which I get to combine multiple long-standing weird niche interests in ways that I've always wanted to be able to make work but never have been able to convince myself was possible.

6. I've met a lot of nice cats out on walks recently.

8. It turns out that when I'm freaking out and trying not to show it I can just explain to the people I love that and why I am freaking out and they will say "thank you for explaining" and give me a hug and the situation will improve.

9. I have a big exciting positive thing coming up on Friday and I don't want to go into details but I am practically quivering with anticipation.

10. I have written so much stuff this year. A lot of it has been very good! A lot of it hasn't and that's OK too! Much of the less good stuff was still useful to write.

11. I've been doing morning pages (two pages of unstructured journalling first thing) for the last six months and this has been a very positive mental health intervention but more importantly I have somehow acquired and stuck to a new positive habit. This *never* happens.

12. I have apparently successfully conned alt-twitter into doing gratitude journalling, a highly effective mental health intervention, by means of a viral meme.

13. It has recently become much easier for my partners and I to see each other and everything* about this is wonderful. * except, perhaps, its impact on our ability to get *any* work done.

14. On the subject of which, I'm shortly going to pause updating this thread to just go casually hang out with one of my partners, because we can do that now. Tweets will resume later.

15. An odd consequence of the pandemic and it forcing everyone to become Extremely Online is that I now have weekly zoom calls with my family and it's really nice. I'd love to see them in person of course but we're actually in better contact in 2020 than we were in 2019.

16. I created this alt because there were a lot of things I was frustrated about not being able to say in public because I thought they'd get me cancelled and almost everyone has been lovely and supportive and thanked me for sharing them.

17. My weight has gone down to a level I'm happy with more or less without me trying in a way that feels very sustainable. It was never a problem exactly, but it's been gradually creeping up over the years and it was starting to be consistently higher than I liked.

18. I feel happier and more comfortable in my body this year than I ever have in my life previously. There are a whole variety of complex reasons for this, and the weight thing feels more like a side effect than a cause of this.

20. That was a very nice cuddle break. We talked about our feelings and discussed the tripartite definition of knowledge.

21. Lots of people are doing these threads, yay! https://twitter.com/search?q=https%3A%2F%2Ftwitter.com%2FGeniesLoki%2Fstatus%2F1308701154986078208&src=typed_query&f=live …

22. Back on the body comfort front, you know what's super amazing and good? Not having an upset stomach all the time. The dietary restrictions I finally figured out that allow me to maintain this state are kinda annoying but so very worth it.

23. I can similarly HIGHLY recommend not having chronic pain. It's so good. (I haven't quite fixed mine, but a variety of lifestyle interventions have helped to dramatically reduce it)

24. In general there's just been a lot of hugely positive trends in my life over the last two and a bit (many attributable to my partners, but it started a couple of months before I started dating them). I was in a bit of a holding pattern before then, and intervened to fix it.

27. I'm really failing to do work at the moment which may sound like a bad thing but is mostly because the sheer vast weight of tension figuring this out has allowed me to release over the last four days has left me ridiculously relaxed.https://twitter.com/GeniesLoki/status/1308705828715851777 …

28. The view out of my flat is really nice.

29. I got called out (incompetently, incorrectly) and the world didn't end and I got a nice bonus emotional breakthrough out of it. This is a weird thing to list as a positive but it genuinely is one. Twitter feels much safer than when I was waiting for the other shoe to drop.

30. I'm looking forward to throwing some small parties again once the Current Situation is resolved. Kinda thought my party throwing days were behind me but now it sounds genuinely nice.