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They grew up in an Evangelical world. With all the Evangelical programming/lies. Long story short we were reunited when they turned 18. It’s not a fairytale but we try & try & try. They’re trump/pence supporters. I’m a flaming queer. It hurts. I can’t help but take it personally

most days. I’ve tried very hard to just love them unconditionally, no matter what they do .. they’re my children. That doesn’t mean I enable. I don’t. And even in my pain, I get that it isn’t specifically abt me. I really do. But, being human .. it f*cking hurts to the bone.

What happened all those years ago has literally changed my brain. And their brains. Trauma does that. Even ppl who know me find it necessary to talk abt how I have major issues and/or I am *crazy or whatever. That hurts too bc folks love to poke poke poke at other’s raw spots.

I’m rambling now bc I get super uncomfortable talking about this in a public forum bc again .. ppl can be assholes. I digress. Anyway, I bet if your children were taken from you for no other reason than bc of who you’re .. you’d feel traumatized too .. as would your children.

I bet if your adult children supported a man/party who’ve made it their life mission to legalize racism/bigotry that would hurt you. I bet if you missed their entire childhood & were trying to navigate getting to know your adult children who’ve spent the majority of their lives

being fed hate re: who you’re that would be difficult for you, too. Idk how to fix any of it. Idk what to do. Idk how to feel. Idk how to trust anymore. Idk how to find the balance. I do the best I can .. from moment to moment and sometimes .. that’s hardAF. Does that make me

weak? No. Does that make me strong? No. It just is what it is. I’m just who I am. They’re who they’re. And all I know to do is let go & let go again & keep letting go and love the best I can. Do I have anger? Yes. Do I have sadness? Yes. Do I find joy? Yes. Idek what I’m trying

to say .. except .. life ain’t easy. Relationships aren’t easy. Family isn’t easy. Friendships aren’t always easy. Navigating adulthood isn’t easy. Parenting isn’t easy. Communicating in a healthy way isn’t always easy. We hurt ppl. We get hurt. Feel your feelings. Always.

There’s no right or wrong way in figuring out how to navigate difficulties to best suit you/your loved ones and being able to adjust/modify when need be. Idk if anything I said makes sense you and that’s ok too. Just felt the need to share.

Lastly, so do I have *issues? Yes. Life does that to us. Anyone trying to tell you they’re issue free are in denial and/or liars. There I said it.

And I am not looking for sympathy .. I am merely sharing my human experience with you so that you know someone else out here understands what pain/trauma is & it’s ok to talk about it. There’s no shame in feeling.

Main point - when you feel the need to defend religion to someone who’s telling you they’ve been literally traumatized by it. You’re defending trauma and dismissing the person and their pain.

Another point - Evangelicals (Ima stick to talking about them bc that’s what I know) raise children via radicalization & hate/fear toward anyone who isn’t just like them. Don’t be fooled by the scriptures they spew and the smiles they hide behind.

Setting a few things straight-wasn’t clear in my thread. They weren’t adopted, they were raised by their preacher father/step mother. They were programmed to forget I existed. They have several siblings who never knew their brothers had a diff mom/their dad was previously married