The only thing that genuinely works is alcohol, and for obvious damn reasons I don’t want to go down that road. Have even had times where I have. Nothing good comes from it.
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I exercise a ton. Meditation. All of it. I do everything Im supposed to. Its just that brain cant shut off. And I just want to shout to the void and say “this genuinely sucks!” And that at least feels good enough for the moment.
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Everyone keeps offering suggestions and help. As if theres some mysterious thing Im doing wrong. Some key that will make work! I get the good intentions, but Ive been going through this for decades and decades, folks. What I want is for it just to just be understood and believed.
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And to be clear. Yes, I've seen doctors and sleep specialists. Diagnosis is a combo of fairly standard sleep disorders, the problem is they way they crash together. Got a basic case of Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome which crashes with capacity for Non-24 hour sleep wake disorder -
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not a good combo because it means I can essentially let myself get off my late phase so damn easily, which not only impacts life schedule but doesn't refresh me the same way it does for people who only suffer from that one. Couple this with "racing thoughts"...
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which is basically something you develop as a kid when you're effectively going numb / sharklike to combat would be depression / anxiety that would be present if you could connect to your emotions. Essentially, it's a method of trying to "outthink" the approach of dread and fear
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Which just creates more spirals. Eventually this system crashes, depression and anxiety arrive and become diagnosed later in life, and exacerbate said system. Now, the nuclear bomb is when insomnia gets in the mix and it does happen when all of this sort of goes wild
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And it basically becomes a nightmare of fuzzy waking dream. I've had this on and off throughout life. I've seen doctors. I've tried everything. Please please please don't tell me about how maybe there's some magical thing I'm missing. I've been through this so so so many times.
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This is something I understand better than anyone else possibly could about me. The point of this whole shebang, is to reach out to people who are experiencing it / something like it or know people who are, and say "I get it." <3
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Replying to @FilmCritHULK
I know that this is an older thread, but watching this video helped me a lot. I have a chronic illness myself. https://youtu.be/3krVl6UMIeo
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this is great, thank you.
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