Hi. I want to convey to you something very important. I know why you feel that way. But it is absolutely 100% no way no how in anyway selfish. If anything, the terrifying fact of suicide is it is an act of self-care in the face of forces you cannot even comprehend.
This isn't about compassion, I understand that both come from love and wanting to "fix things," but this is about having a basic understanding of psychology 101.