𝓝𝓪𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓮 𝓦𝔂𝓷𝓷  💎

People say: "Your effort to copy a woman's voice sounds fake." (I get this less often than I used to.) Look: I'm training my voice to have a whole new pitch/resonance/cadence. It's not gonna sound natural at first. But will you give me five fucking seconds to work on it?

Related: "If you always wear makeup and dresses doesn't that make you just a man's caricature idea of a woman? Isn't it unfeminist?" (If the speaker is a TERF the adjective "pornified" will probably be thrown in somewhere.)

Before responding to that, let's consider a counterfactual: Suppose I wore jeans and a t-shirt all the time and no makeup. I didn't do the orange-concealer-&-foundation-over-beard-shadow routine. Wouldn't you then say: "You just look like a man, you're not even trying."

(If a TERF you'd probably add in what a terrifying menace I am to true females in female spaces.) Aren't you just against the idea of transition full stop? Why pretend this is about specific details of my transition when really it's about your wholesale rejection of trans people?

Let's move from microaggressions to true macro-idiocy. People sometimes adduce pre-transition pictures and videos of me as evidence that I couldn't possibly be the gender I say on them. To this I say: you know, it's called "transition" for a reason.

The allegation seems to be that I'm pretending to be cis. Basically it's transphobic trope #1: "trans people are liars." In my case this seems especially odd, seeing as I make videos where my male body transforms into my female body through the magic of editing, etc.

Weirder still are the confident armchair speculations that I'm not really trans—"he certainly has no medically diagnosable dysphoria"—and am making the whole thing up (hormonally annihilating my sex drive, growing breasts, etc) just for, oh I don't know, laughs I guess.

So for one thing, my doctor apparently disagrees with your Internet assessment (unless she's also in on the whole joke, which would be interesting).

For another: if your conclusion that I'm not trans is based on my online activity (and it must be since you don't actually know me), I'm wondering: what could I possibly do to convey transgenderism more convincingly? Like, what is the thing that trans people do that I don't?

(I realize I'm responding to trolls here, my goal is to entertain the audience.)

I saved the best for last: I sometimes get comments and messages (often very long ones divided into thick paragraphs) from absolute strangers claiming to be concerned that transition is the wrong choice for me and that I'm making a terrible mistake.

Some of these are very heartfelt, and come from concerned citizens who have followed me online for years and really *know me* you know? Like, they *really* know me, not in the cursory way I know myself, but in the *deep* way that only an objectively minded online stranger could.

And from this position of informed, rational objectivity, they are just so kind to tell me why they used to like me so much better before I transitioned, how disappointed they are to see me duped by millennial id-pol nonsense, and just how difficult this has all been for them.

To this, I have no response. Simply describing it to other people is just so fun.