𝓝𝓪𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓮 𝓦𝔂𝓷𝓷  💎

I don't feel like a *real* man now! This is the psychological state that, for me, is non-binary.

I feel alienated from my male body, from male social and sexual roles. But I also still inhabit that body and some of those roles.

I often want to be a woman but I don't quite feel that I am one. So calling myself a woman feels merely aspirational--

--and calling myself a man ignores my own psychology.

Now there's also the issue of expression: genderqueerness can also be something you do: "queering" gender

Anyone can present as a genderfuck: but the reason for doing it matters. It could be for the sake of art or performance or to make a point.

Or, it could be an expression of how you actually experience your own gender. And then it's an expression of genderqueerness.

I still say "genderfuck" in my profile, but is that really what I am? It's not, really. It's rather my way of dealing with dissonance.