𝓝𝓪𝓽𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓮 𝓦𝔂𝓷𝓷  💎

But I suppose I'm worried that my motivation here is too much "I want to wash my hands of the situation" and not enough "something good will happen because I'm doing this."

There's also this background anxiety I have around what I said last night about the obligations of public representatives. I've had no choice but to take on the trans representative role since I came out, and as my platform grows so does that obligation.

And to be honest I'm often not sure I'm up to it. Everything I said about Singal's failures will at some point be said about me. Much of it already has. What does being a good representative involve in my case? Do I just visibly be myself? Or do I have to toe a more generic line?

I'm an abnormal trans person. I wasn't a trans child. I think of myself as transitioning from one gender to another rather than expressing an inherent essence. My sexual orientation has shifted with my transition. I have a performative, non-ontological view of what gender even is

Far from having "joined the transcult" I think I'm fairly heterodox. I was being serious yesterday when I said I like having nuanced freespeechy conversations about this kind of thing. But for the good of the community do I need to keep this shit to myself?

I know there will come a time where I'm accused of failing to be a good representative. And I guess I need to prepare myself for that so I'm mentally ready to handle it correctly.