Mike CernovichVerified account

While I don't mean to sound hypocritical, my view has been altered. Although many abuse the system, doing it the right way only places you in a vulnerable and isolated position. There is no good option unless you choose to internalize and ignore it completely.

So now I am faced with figuring out a big move, a new job, medications and managing this ridiculous and overbearing physical illness, largely because I chose to speak out and even tried protecting my organization from the potential harm of continuing to ignore the issue.

At this point I am relocating to care for my family at the end of this month. Taking my HIV medication every other day to stretch it out and hoping I can manage it all. And although I feel like I am whining and complaining. I've held it privately for so long I can't function.

I am unsure about my future right now. But it is a new and fresh start. But its been more overwhelming than I thought possible. I did everything I could, but now I have to move forward. In any case, I don't mean to portray myself as a victim. But I do better understand now.

But you are all always so supportive and wonderful. I'll get through it. I have Jacob. It will just take some time.

The truth is, I do need help. I always take care of things. Its my job. But I really am at a loss. But just know your kind words mean a great deal to me. I'll manage. I always do.

And its not that I think my employer is responsible for my life or wellbeing. But after 3 years it is frustrating to see them so easily push me out and ignore these concerns. Its a multi-billion org but they act like my $58k salary is bankrupting them. Just frustrating.