Yesterday I watched a video of a monk talking about how another name for the devil is “the accusatory spirit” and that is for sure my main sin (besides the sluttiness.)
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Oh yeah no totally it comes from being unnerved by my own ineffectiveness and struggle. It’s a defense mechanism to avoid looking at how small and powerless I continue to feel, absolutely.
I think also there are lots of situations where I went into them assuming I’d finally feel effective/competent/powerful when I got there and no that’s not how any of it has worked. So I think the lashing out is related to shame about that too.
