Borzoi  🌲

Got called into work. Called my dad to talk me down as I was about to destroy my livelihood just to own my boss. Hopefully it's a quiet night so that I can recompose my thoughts.

I lost my train of thought. And something just came up. I feel like this is unfinished, but I'm not sure what else I can say that isn't going to just be constantly repeating myself. I have to go take care of this, unfortunately. Maybe I'll come back to this. 18/18?

Which why I'm not going to attack him with that. It's an epidemic and it needs to stop. I'm not going to insult my wonderful east euro friends because one of theirs escaped the t@rd farmhttps://twitter.com/Kandabalsam/status/1028410199147782144 …

I'm tired of being nice to people who didnt get punched in the mouth enough for being literal antisocial morons. Kid gloves are off. If they want to be treated like petulant gypsies, I'll obligehttps://twitter.com/bitchesloveme66/status/1028409506684915713 …

And people wonder why I hate this fake and gay movement. If it were not right I'd not lift one finger to help these dickheads and leave them to burn

Enjoy being muted, shithead, your usual life of being completely ignored as you create and do nothing of value https://twitter.com/wewuzromanz/status/1028407818058190853 …

There was never a future for someone like Rich, absorbing messaging that he was slated for planned obsolescence in the fake and gay Superior Future. I don't think he knew he was opting himself out of a raw deal and dying on *his* terms. We understood that *immediately* 17/

It's because you self-style yourself as empathetic, but you're anything but. And your chaos is worse than anything Rich had. At best I may believe you have sympathy, but you have no empathy. You can't. Rich might as well be an alien to you. He's just a fundraiser for you 16/

If you're not the kind of person who gets this, here's something about yourself *you* need to unpack You have no interest in helping guys like Rich. You just want them to shut up, go away, and quietly die. You. Don't. Care. And it's infuriating that you won't admit this 15/

That's the psychic prison. The problem with no name that cannot be named. How the fuck can you just chalk it up to mental illness when the guy was self-aware, when American society is so clearly a pathology in and of itself? You either grit your teeth or you check out 14/

Rich had no real understanding of what he was going through and would have denied it. He didn't want to hurt anyone He didn't want to trouble anyone He didn't want to be a problem Why would anyone think like that? Why are thousands saying they understand? 13/

And Rich had glimpses of that. He was afforded clear-eyed lucidity that is granted to holy fools If we did not have Rich's final words we would have never known he was a martyr. We've had men crash planes before. In those moments he became a generation's howling anguish 12/

He could be on pills that would balloon up his weight and maybe at best keep him managed until a slow, slow death Or he could end up another OD in the strange, little talked about crisis the media doesn't really talk about Truth is...the game was rigged from the start 11/

And all the mental health services in the world would have never saved him. Maybe some strong counseling. Maybe. But that only works when everything else is strong to support you Truth is they'd set him down Pharma road to one of two possible end paths. Neither one good 10/

Rich, it will be noted, *was* married. To what his chaos was, I can't attest. The devil here is not in the details as the results remain the same. Even that couldn't save Rich What he must've seen through that windshield in the light was some reflection of a better life 9/

There are actually few white men who strive to be Great Men, even if the spark is there. Bell curve distribution, after all. Those not degenerated are humble people. Home and hearth. Wife and child. This is not a future for many of them now Martyrs in a psychic prison. 8/

So what did I mean by Rich's psychic prison? In light of his death people will likely try to speak about mental illness without even really speaking about it. Just another fundraising drive. Actually they will likely just ignore it since undesirables like us have claimed him 7/

That's the crazy part you see. How we deal with and the pain that almost always comes with it is the story we write for ourselves. If you'd like an example of a man who embodied those traits and fought that chaos every single day until it got him, Ernest Hemingway works. 5/

There's something either genetic or cultural (likely both) in a drive that makes man go "yeah I'll climb into some wooden or metal vessel and launch myself towards a place as far as I know no one else has been at risk of life and limb" You either have it or you don't 4/