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There is also something called occipital neuralgia, which is kind of the same thing but it makes you go batshit blind while it happens. Your optical nerve gives up on life as your entire face feels like it's melting from intense pain - even breathing feels like it is impossible.

Nothing works sometimes, not even neuro pills and that's where nerve shots come along. You have to get injections in your skull (or spine, sometimes) so it numbs the nerve hub directly. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't - all that money and time on a lucky chance.

Even when it does, eventually you sort of hurt the nerve hub which means you increase your odds of it losing how effective it might be next time. Needing more with potentially less time of relief. I got a total of 12 in just one year, I hated every single one of them.

So the alternative is going back on long and full on treatment, which is medication that progressively destroys your liver and gives you long term side effects. Like being forever skin sensitive to the sun thanks to gabapentine, but who needs to go out anyways. Fuck you sun.

All of this sets depression and anxiety, but you can't even cry because something like crying will set off the worst of your facial pain. To the point it can blind you and fuck you up for days. Panic attacks feel like you should be dead, it all *literally* feels like too much.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, and stuff.

Does cdb oil or the like help?

My neuro treatment has been so expensive (and kind of terrifying) in the last five years, I am sort of scared to jump into anything without neuro referral. Last time I went he wanted to start a new treatment and quite frankly I don't think my body can take it anymore