The Legendary Dragon Alephwyr, named Alephwyr, BA

I was listening to a very literal voice in my head for a while but got carried away with it, and then I got mindraped by apparently literal Angels. Sort of scared of everything now. Don't trust the ground underneath me to stay there, don't trust gravity, don't trust logic

ah. that's not great rebuilding these forms of trust seems like the natural step to take, i hope you're taking it

I don't know what to trust. Angels suck. The future sucks, so opening a door to time manipulation is unhelpful. Everything I do just ends up being a form of terrorism towards myself.

Being trans makes everything hard. Can't turn to religion. Most metaphysics have so much baggage, or else they just open the door to terror. "Nothing is true, everything is permitted" is basically Crichton's "Sphere", but Christianity promotes hell, and they all say I'm wrong

I'm not wrong but I can't build an epistemological foundation out of my trans ness

it isn't clear to me why you'd need to start small imo you have an experiential point of view. that's consistent, trustable when you drop a rock it falls to the ground. consistent, trustable build from there angels are superfluous to requirements

It was radically inconsistent for a period of about 4 years

okay. so any trust is relative and probabilistic, based on recent performance which may indicate but does not guarantee future performance. that's fine. probably we'd be better off if more people kept that in mind in general