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Aella
@Aella_Girl
I have intense executive dysfunction; i can't forcing myself to do anything boring, which means I fail at basic maintenance tasks. this is even with intense incentives; I was making 100k/month on onlyfans but it got boring so I stopped working that hard after just a few months
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@Aella_Girl
I could in theory make that much again if I started working that hard, but even with that much incentive I cannot force myself to do it. I either am zoned in hard on a project that I love or I'm playing video games while my life falls apart.
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@Aella_Girl
I've figured out some ways to be functional, like adderall helps a little bit, and I've finally hired a housekeeper to sweep my house into shape, I pay a but more for pre-sorted vitamin packs, etc. Its expensive to compensate for my executive dysfunction tho.
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@Aella_Girl
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@Aella_Girl
I'm actually pretty shocked that I've managed to work semi consistently on one long project this year, the kink survey. It gives me a little hope that I can do more normal types of work. Maybe it works when it's projects I chose and fully control!
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@Aella_Girl
also no I'm not loaded, after taxes (plus additional 15% self employment) a few months of onlyfans did pad my savings, but ive been just breaking even since then and am currently probably about as financially stable as a software engineer.
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Aaron James
@OnAssholes
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@Aella_Girl
Can you gamify the boring tasks, meaning impose an arbitrary obstacle, like a tight time constraint, so that doing them is a bit of a challenge? Then keep giving yourself less and less time expecting similar quality?
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Olive Dares the Darkness
@olivedaresthed1
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@Aella_Girl
I’ve discovered that learning something new or creating something are the only things that can keep me interested. I often endure great suffering to avoid things that bore me, seemingly out of spite. Maybe you have some of that going on.
Moya
@moyahagel
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@Aella_Girl
I've been considering hiring a housekeeper for my studio apartment (which probably sounds INSANE to most people). I can't bring myself to do anything that's not mentally stimulating. Everything I lose interest in falls into the abyss and no longer exists.
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Joel Eriksson
@OwariDa
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@Aella_Girl
This is a big part of it. I am much rather paying for convenience when possible, than wasting precious mental resources to save a few (or a bunch of) bucks During periods where I need to really focus, I'm cutting everything else off to avoid distractions
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