Conversation

I have intense executive dysfunction; i can't forcing myself to do anything boring, which means I fail at basic maintenance tasks. this is even with intense incentives; I was making 100k/month on onlyfans but it got boring so I stopped working that hard after just a few months

112

1,134

Aella

@Aella_Girl

I could in theory make that much again if I started working that hard, but even with that much incentive I cannot force myself to do it. I either am zoned in hard on a project that I love or I'm playing video games while my life falls apart.

8:31 PM · Nov 18, 2022

Replying to

I've figured out some ways to be functional, like adderall helps a little bit, and I've finally hired a housekeeper to sweep my house into shape, I pay a but more for pre-sorted vitamin packs, etc. Its expensive to compensate for my executive dysfunction tho.

221

Aella

@Aella_Girl

Nov 18, 2022

I'm actually pretty shocked that I've managed to work semi consistently on one long project this year, the kink survey. It gives me a little hope that I can do more normal types of work. Maybe it works when it's projects I chose and fully control!

225

Aella

@Aella_Girl

Nov 18, 2022

also no I'm not loaded, after taxes (plus additional 15% self employment) a few months of onlyfans did pad my savings, but ive been just breaking even since then and am currently probably about as financially stable as a software engineer.

209

Replying to

What video games are you playing right now?

Replying to

factorio, again

Show replies

Replying to

yea it really be like this

Replying to

If you’re amenable to it, check out ketamine treatments. I got long lasting results in the executive dysfunction area from a few doses. Lots of surprising moments where I found myself actually doing things I wanted/needed to do without the need for some external sense of urgency.