kinda feels like my spiritual journey had been less about being at peace or chill and more like seeing how many suffering levels I can stack on top of the lowest, nonsuffering layer without losing contact with it
all the recent spiritual-esque growth feels like figuring out all the new cool attachments I can balance on top of my head like mismatched china bowls while still touching the nonsuffering with the stretched out toe of my foot
it feels cool every time I notice I seem to have stacked another one without losing the deep touch, feels like aw fuck yeah wow didn't know I could do that, look ma no hands