sometimes im like wait do i ever have emotions or desires? am i ever a person at all? but then when actual emotions or desires start up im like dear god almighty this is too much aliveness im so exhausted
i just wanna hit a sweet, constant, boring middle zone of aliveness pls
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get a shitty job in a field you don’t enjoy for a paycheck you don’t need, that’ll probably do it
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I often get stuck between "I just want a world where people just Do Things with wild abandon so I can do what other people want to do and not have the pressure of choosing" and "I want this very specific desire met in this exact way in this exact place" as well
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Funny, I very very rarely experience emotions personally (movies often move me deeply) and assumed I was “missing out” but maybe I’m really lucky
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reddit.com/r/Nootropics/c
Not sure if you're into nootropics type stuff, but NAC is a relatively mild one (amino acid), and could be useful for what you're describing. Read past the title.
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I've reached the point where I have no care about the existence of anything, including myself.
