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Aella
@Aella_Girl
Sometimes you can have unreasonable feelings, in the sense that you don't "condone" them, but they exist anyway. For example, "I'm mad people don't want to fuck me" - obvs you might not actually believe people *should* fuck you, but the emotion's still there Anyway, one of mine:
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Aella
@Aella_Girl
Some "unreasonable" part of me is angry that I've gotten many many times more resources (money, gifts) from men who just wanted to fuck me, compared to men who loved me.
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Aella
@Aella_Girl
I'm fully aware this doesn't make "sense" - I have been clearly optimizing for men giving me money through resources and have historically tended to date men much less financially secure than me, so I know it's not actually anyone else's fault.
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Aella
@Aella_Girl
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@Aella_Girl
But i def got a trad side that wants to be financially supported by a boy who loves me. maybe this trad side evolved out of dating too many homeless boys? at this point im like fuck it, im not dating a single additional homeless boy no matter how charming he is
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Eli Gaultney
@eligaultney
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@Aella_Girl
Step 1 towards any kind of mental freedom is to be able to accept every feeling, mood, thought for what it is: a ripple on the surface of consciousness that you've no control over arising. You have control over how you act afterwards though!
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