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@Aella_Girl
LSD/shrooms feels a bit 'top down,' with the sense of "you working out" your problems, coming into conscious contact with every element, etc. MDMA feels like the goodness is *just there* without u having to go through it This is kinda what sex parties do for me 1/
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@Aella_Girl
Like, despite my whole sex work or whatever, I still have feelings of... tension around free sexuality. And I can try to work through this top down, consciously - but attending sex parties feels like taking the MDMA of sexual comfort - the comfort just *happens* to me.
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Aella
@Aella_Girl
In this, sex parties/orgies feel really healthy for me to attend, kinda healing in some way, like it wipes away subtle shame that accumulated like grime over years from hanging out with people who would never fuck in front of you.
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Long ago I used to hang out in circles that were super sexually open, I saw all my friends get railed, we'd masturbate in the same room casually while hanging out, and that was *amazing* for my mental health, resulted in a deep comfort around sexual openness that I miss a lot.
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