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Leona
@dismaien
1/ Yesterday I went clubbing, really properly clubbing – tight, dark, hot, sweaty, thumping, hundreds of people, uninhibited contact, no covid precautions whatsoever – for the first time in two and a half years. Years in which I changed at the core of my being.
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2/ I had so many thoughts and insights while dancing all night, but no way of writing them down. Trying to recover just a few wisps of them now in a fairly orderless fashion, also taking this as an exercise in writing without filtering. Won't edit or doubt before posting.
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Leona
@dismaien
3/ One thing that really struck is me is how much my taste in music to dance to has changed. I used to love straight up techno, the harder and more monotonous, the better. The more intense and driving the repetitive bass that was invading my body became, the deeper I could
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4/ fall into a kind of trance, the more embodied and detached from my thoughts and ego I felt. Now suddenly, the repetitiveness of it bored me. I'd glimpsed this quite a few times in the intervening years, but last night it became impossible to ignore or diminish –
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@Aella_Girl
yes, that's exactly it. i think we even briefly talked about this at the castle a few months before this blog post, only back then i wasn't fully able to let go into type 2 yet, thus preferred type 1. this also seems like what you were able to transmit in your dance course!
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