"going to the gym" feels really tainted for me lately
"oh cool another set of constrained actions that I have to perform in a specific way, no fucking thank you"
huh this suddenly made me wonder if my dislike of working out is due to childhood trauma or whatever
(given i am skeptical about 'trauma' stuff in general tho)
not yet, but a post is brewing in the background
uh but generally im a little sus that (at least some) trauma isn't uh... 'real' in some sense? or that the 'trauma' frame isn't very useful for processing stuff?