Sometimes when I jerk off for a longer period, watching porn, it feels like the feeling is gonna encompass me completely. And that makes me feel.. very uncomfortable. like, not completely in control or something, which makes me feel scared. I don't want my lust to rule me.
I’m a simple man. Bad/mean porn make feel bad. Good/supportive/wholesome porn make feel good. Tend to classify good porn as “the one where the woman cums too,” aka “everyone goes home happy.”
Always guilty and lonely even if it was a previous or current partner. Not in the religious sense, but in the sense of feeling demasculated and unable to be wanted.