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I drank multiple whiskey gingers and then wrote out this angry rant about how women talk/behave in porn like absolute child idiots but then I feel evil and judge-y to think these things, and my weird desire to not be "judge-y" about other women is trumping my desire to rant 😤

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O yea I head in the child idiot direction when livestreaming porn and I gotta say I did not start out doing this, I learned over years that this is a more effective way to pay my bills.

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*sigh* this is such a drag. I want there to be a world where men will pay extra to have their porn hotness with a side of big brains. I don't mind if "hot and dumb" turns someone on but I just also want someone to be able to make big money being hot and smart.

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Guys want a woman totally vulnerable an open to them, and being smart does not map onto well with being vulnerable and open. The baby talk thing is meant to represent zero defenses, imo. But yeaaaaah I agree with you :(

6:29 PM · Nov 21, 2020

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This makes sense! What effect do you think it has for you to be a well-known smart girl, outside of live streaming? I'm curious if men would find you even more attractive if you were genuinely less smart? Or how desirability as a whole person relates to sexual desirability...

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I just cheered myself up a little bit by thinking that your ability to figure out and work the system actually does let you make a bunch of money being by hot and smart, just indirectly. So...better than nothing? I'm going with it.