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I like a lot of 'eye contact hippie' category things. Feeling into energy together, crying together, crazy weird spiritual experiences, bizarre communication styles - I'm into it. But I feel very turned off by the vast majority of classes/communities around this stuff. 1/

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Tantra classes, relating games, or anything that's exploring other modes of being in an instruction/exploration setting make me wanna throw up in my mouth. I suspect it's due to the structure? Like 'trying' to make it happen transforms it from beautiful into a creeping horror. 2

10:54 PM · Aug 22, 2020

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The biggest exception to this is circling. Circling has a container and has people coming with intent to do a weird thing, but it seems okay - maybe cause I've done almost exclusively surrendered leadership which is basically full anarchy, and that feels sufficiently organic?

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Scholastic mysticism?

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Is it the 'trying' or the 'instructor lead' rather than 'group experience' aspect?

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is playing askhole “trying”?

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What puts me off most "alt" things: 1) the lack of a cohesive, immersive aesthetic (usually it's either garish or hippie) 2) lack of matter-of-factness. Forcing/administering it creates a feeling of performance and cringe 3) the people involved are often immature/unstable ime

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What if settings that are too structured create an unnatural acceleration? Like advertising, the emotions generated feel contrived and out of context.

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i feel this. still creeps me out, but i very recently was able to stop looking down on and find a respect for people earnestly putting effort into learning/doing things. still, a wide margin for exploitation in terms of marketing some form of ‘spirituality’, i’d say.