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I've always had an undercurrent of "we just need to try to understand each other" with people I disagree with. Forever. But I'm starting to feel myself losing it with the woke infection. I'm watching myself shut down and curl up and go "actually no just go away." 1/

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@Aella_Girl

It's surreal and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I think I'm starting to view them as an enemy as opposed to simply misguided. I feel a little grief over this, but this is coming after a *lot* of charitably-attempted interactions with these people. I feel exhausted and done.

2:37 AM · Aug 7, 2020

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I know this isn't fair. I know that I've always wanted people to try to interact charitably with me. And to be fair I do think I would be happy to have conversations with seemingly Infected people if they were charitable! But I'm absolutely biased now upon just subtle signaling.

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@Aella_Girl

Aug 7, 2020

Like, I've noticed I've mostly stopped following people with BLM in their bios - not because I disagree with BLM, but because it's been associated with this terrifying and brutal infection that's claiming the minds of so many of my friends. I hate it.

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Aella

@Aella_Girl

Aug 7, 2020

I'm also afraid that me saying this will be used to justify meanness to the infected. I don't want that - I know this is a hard, nuanced line to walk. I don't think we should go easily into a war mindset at *all*. It shouldn't be easy to think war is justified. It should be hard.

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@Aella_Girl

Aug 7, 2020

And I absolutely don't want my expression of this fear and aversion to be taken as welcoming to the other side of the shithole. I disagree probably even more with the core ideology of the alt-right. If you're far-right, I'm not your friend either.

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One problem is i noticed a large number of them are quite cynical/snarky people which is perfectly in line with postmodern entertainment we were all raised in (south park, ect)

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I grew up in the nerd wars of Super Nintendo vs. Genesis, Star Wars vs. Star Trek, and Marvel vs. DC. I hoped adulthood would be more refined. Wrong. I think it is built in to humans to just pick teams and yell. At this point I just want to be left alone to enjoy my black pill.

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