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I realized I had no true self when I was 13, and over my life this has developed into a theme. I feel as though I'm a series of masks, or personalities, all the way down into the abyss; if you try to uncover the truth of me, you'll find nothing there at all.

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Aella, after reading a few things you've written, I'm curious whether you've ever had any interest in Zen Buddhism, and if so what you think of it.

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I am sorta drawn to it, but notice I avoid reading any Zen writings

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Interesting. Well, here's Huineng tearing them up so you don't have to worry about reading them.

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I'm curious how this affected your Christian beliefs at the time. I grew up Christian and imagine that if I had realised there was no self, Christianity would naturally have fallen away. Maybe not though.

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As long as you are able to abide in the no-self, avoiding to read Zen writings is the most Zen thing you can do. Writings are the map, but the path needs to be walked.