I know what I need to do. And yet every day I choose not to do it. Not reading books, not doing research, not working on side projects. Everything seems so boring, nothing is exciting. Have I ever been excited by my research? Maybe during the first month here a year ago.
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Another day passes. Phone reports 7 hours of usage. Wasting so much time, feeling sad, yet doing that again and again. Don't know why I am convinced that “I can do it, the only problem is that I just don't want to”.
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Decided to get into clojure two weeks ago, that was going well for 4 days, haven't touched it in 10 days now. Reading a chapter or two from a new book, not able to go further, jumping to the next one. Being around motivated people just makes me more depressed.
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I certainly made the right call with not going to our group's phd weekend upstate retreat a month ago, would have felt absolutely crushed, most students are so interested. Sitting in the talks, thinking “why do I care about all that?”, that wasn't the case one year ago.
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Can't think of a thing I don't feel this way about now. Thank god assignments for my courses are trivial, how much worse would I be feeling if I had to spend an hour thinking on a homework problem, the level of self-doubt that would induce...
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Right, psychiatrist. Went to one two weeks ago, turned out she does psychoanalysis. Took me a month and a half from the call to Columbia psychological services to that meeting. I know what I need to do, but how do I do a thing without a deadline?
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Replying to @posobin
Psychiatrist. Find a real one. 100%. Very normal, indeed classic. Plus some minor social environment changes, possibly. Will help. Just do it as soon as you can. Don’t sweat it. Seen exactly this w/ many very capable & motivated friends.
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Replying to @AdamMarblestone
Any recommendations on the psychiatrist? I will probably look for a CBT specialist.
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I meant advice on choosing one, not recommendations.
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Sounds ok — but emphasis on the MD part, as opposed to psychologist. Someone who can know whether one would benefit from a drug, and if so prescribe it!
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