When you first turn to God and go to church you are overwhelmed with relief and full of conviction to lead a better life
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Maybe you start to panic, or maybe you just feel a mounting guilt. The full gravity of your condition starts to become clear
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You're not sinning any less. You're not a better person. If anything, hell seems both more real and more likely than before.
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The full weight and significance of Jesus's death on the cross becomes clear--it wasn't so that you would never sin again...
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...but because you *cannot possibly stop sinning.* Someone else had to be virtuous for you, someone had to be perfect for you.
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And when it finally sinks in, you find yourself in a strange tension of relief and fear. Relief, bc God has taken matters into His hands.
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Fear, because your own behavior isn't hidden from yourself anymore. You know where you are going. You know it'll take a miracle.
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So you live on a tightrope now. You're damned and saved at the same time. And in the end, you find you were always were one or the other.
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